Mashalovesyou

The depression is coming back again, It sucks, it truly does. I miss her, but i cant see her. Everything is my fault, why cant i make people happy, only sad. I miss my happiness and overall optimism on life, but i believe that i wont have that anytime soon. All i can say is that i have to stay alive in order for me to see what's next. Hopefully things will look up, but for now i'm looking down, just like everyone else is on me.

For once in my life i feel complete. I feel like I'm officially happy and going somewhere in life. I'm sober and I know I will be for a long time, unlike everyone else who does drugs and brags about it everyday. I'm happy. Truly happy. I have a wonderful friend, Olivia Marie, an amazing family and positive outlooks on life. So fuck you. Fuck everyone who told me I would fail, who told me I wont ever have a life like this because I obviously have an amazing one. No one can change that. Ever. I love everyone and everything that's happening for me. I've been through so many bad things and horrible life experiences. Teenage experiences. everyone

i'm sick of people starting rumors, you need to understand that life is way too short to talk shit, i mean really? and at least talk shit on someone who cares, cause i don't. if you haven't known i take drama and rumors very well. for example: you say i'm a whore, i brush it off, but on the inside you are the lowest form of humanity there is.people are two faced, so am i, so if you talked shit on me and i found out i hate you on the inside, on the outside i'm my happy preppy self :d i learned to take depression and use the energy from it and turn it in to happiness. as i said before life is too short for things to be sad about. i am a very ni